He looked at me and started laughing and said that he will do it. I left and I see him heading to where Jenny and her group of friends are at. I head out to the far side of the field away from all the school buildings. I see kids around the field, laughing and having a good time. I put my ear buds on and blasted on music so I can feel like I am away, away from this world that creates pain, chaos in every way that I ever go. There's no right direction, I always end up being hurt, hurting myself, or hurting others. The thought of seeing Jenny's reaction of me hurting her, hurted me more than I could feel. I felt lost somewhere, not knowing what to say, to think, to feeling alone.