I keep thinking about two objects in these chapters and what they represent, and I think the author is doing something really sophisticated with symbolism here.
The first is Xu Lian's '100 Things to Do Before I Die' list. On the surface, it's cute — watch a sunrise, see a whale, ride a camel, fall in love. But read it in context and it's devastating. This is a woman who knows she's going to die, who has been betrayed by everyone she trusted, and her response is to make a bucket list. The fact that item number 100 is 'Fall in love' after being single for 24 years... it's not just romantic. It's an act of defiance. She's saying: I am still alive, I still want things, I still get to want things even if I'm about to die. And then she registers on a dating website as 'Xu Gungun' — a ridiculous name, a ridiculous profile, a woman who 'likes men. Good-looking men. Not too busy at work.' It's almost absurd, but that absurdity IS the point. She's reclaiming her desire in a world that keeps trying to erase her.
The second symbol is the tracking chip. It's been removed from her neck — or so she thought. But when she presses the gauze and feels 'a tiny, thin slice lodged in her flesh, subtle, but with an extremely strange pulling sensation,' it's like the physical manifestation of betrayal itself. You can't see it. You can't easily remove it. But it's there, connected to something else, pulling at you whenever someone else decides to tug. The chip represents how Gu Ying and Song Jinze have both embedded themselves into her body — not just literally, but psychologically. She felt 'touched like a fool' by Song Jinze's care, and that tenderness was literally wired into a device that tracks her every move. The most intimate thing that happened to her was actually surveillance. That's not just plot — that's a theme about how power operates through false intimacy.