Just wrapped up reading the story, and I can’t believe it’s already over uwu.
The tags are limited, making them somewhat unreliable, but overall, I think it’s worth your two nights and one morning. There are a lot of things I enjoyed about the story, though I’m not sure if it’s a lot or not, but here goes:
1) First off, the characters. Song Yan (the main character) is a well-developed character for me, and it was quite a fun journey watching him become more self-aware of his inner thoughts. He’s many things: a cold, rude guy, partly tsundere, partly depressed with a lot of mental anxieties and breakdowns. The story weaves these aspects together to create a protagonist who, under normal circumstances, I wouldn’t particularly like, but he grows on you. This is because, despite his flaws, he’s fundamentally a good person. It can get tiring to watch him jump from one misunderstanding to another, and his way of helping others while refusing to admit it isn’t out of humility but rather due to his trauma and insecurities about forming attachments with others.
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I also appreciate how he becomes more open to his thoughts. Later in the novel, there are dialogues he wouldn’t have bothered to say in the earlier parts, and it’s incredibly fulfilling to see this development. Song Yan grew up without any emotional support. His mother went insane after being abandoned by her husband and treated Song Yan very harmfully. His father is a hopeless case and views Song Yan as an asset rather than his own child. His stepmother is decent and helps him later in the story, but overall, these experiences led Song Yan to develop a hopeless longing for family, coupled with a harmful aversion towards it.
Xia Zhiye (the male lead) is also a fantastic character. You’re probably familiar with the spectrum of male lead archetypes, ranging from cold to teasing, and clingy to more withdrawn. Xia Zhiye is an extreme case of teasing and clingy, and that’s a good thing. However, as I write this, I’m probably dead from the excessive secondhand embarrassment on Song Yan’s behalf. The author is pretty cruel to Song Yan, but I’m a seasoned reader, so it’s bearable. I think that’s what makes Xia Zhiye’s character appealing to me. If you’re obsessed with tags like ‘love interest falls in love first,’ ‘clingy lover,’ or ‘devoted love interest,’ then this novel is definitely for you. Personally, I loved it.
When I talk about characters, I mainly mean the main couple, but the side characters are also well-written. I loved how Xiaopang teaches Song Yan to be more considerate and understand Xia Zhiye’s feelings better, or how the stepmother helps Song Yan, or how their friends support and help them stay in touch during their separation. It’s all pretty nice.
2) Moving on to the relationship dynamics. Song Yan is ruthless and struggles with handling emotions, so most of the time, he’s just too thin-skinned and channels his embarrassment against Xia Zhiye. Xia Zhiye accepts it with grace. The novel also reminds me of "Fake Slackers," which is why I’m a sucker for the cold MC and clingy ML type of story.
3) But the best part of the story is the comedy and angst. The genre tag doesn’t include the comedy part, but humor is subjective. My parents are probably sending me to a mental hospital for laughing all night for no reason. I guess it’s the exposition, dialogues, and character interactions that make it work. It’s not just Song Yan’s nth embarrassing moment (those can be tough to read), but the overall flow of the story with its light and sincere atmosphere. As for the angst...
I don’t know, guys, it’s just a story, why am I bothering to write this much? But I guess it’s the surge of the moment, just like how it’s written in the story. The moral is to treasure the present because it’s where you can live in the moment.