I am not okay. I am literally not okay after reading the flashback scene. Let me just sit with this for a moment.
Twelve-year-old Wen Qingli, heavy-set, already feeling like she doesn't belong, hiding a sanitary pad inside her textbook because the uniform has no pockets. The bully snatches the book, the pad falls out, and the entire class erupts in laughter. "Wen Qingli's bleeding from her bottom!" "How disgusting!" The heat of summer, the molten wind, the tears — this is childhood trauma rendered in full cinematic detail.
And then LU ZHENG appears. Not with a grand speech. Not with dramatic flair. He hands her his jacket, picks up her book and the pad, puts it back between the pages, and tells the bullies that menstruation is a normal biological process. That's it. That's the moment. That's the moment a girl falls in love with a boy for the rest of her life.
The author writes: "Even though she knew, given his character, he would have helped any girl in such a embarrassing situation, her feelings for him began to grow all the same." That's the thing about first love — it doesn't matter if he was being noble to everyone. It matters that he was noble to HER in her most vulnerable moment. And now, years later, she's lying next to him in the dark, still feeling that same pull. I'm wrecked.