"Don't even think about manumission."
I need to talk about this line. I read it three times. Three times. Because on the surface it's cruel — Chu Yi is basically saying you belong to me, don't you dare leave — but the way the scene plays out around it is so complicated that I can't even decide if I'm rooting for Suian to stay or run.
Let's look at what happens before that line. Chu Yi is examining her, looking her up and down, and the text says: "Suian was terrified by his gaze but dared not retreat even a step. She only felt layers of sweat on her back, and as the wind blew, she shivered with cold."
That image of her standing there, sweating, shivering, not moving — it's not romantic. It's not even particularly tender. But then the author describes her smile right after, when he tells her she can stay in the small study courtyard: "Her features were naturally clean and delicate, and this smile was like a sky after rain — clear and bright, without a trace of impurity."
And Chu Yi's internal thought? "Keeping such a foolish simpleton by his side might not be so bad after all. At the very least, she wouldn't dare lie to him."
I'm not sure if that's supposed to be sweet or deeply unsettling. Maybe both. The whole dynamic between them is this weird push-pull where he exerts control and she finds tiny ways to resist — like muttering "What's so great about being tall?" under her breath after he pushes her forehead. She's always calculating, always watching him like a weather vane. "The real challenge is figuring out how to subtly flatter her superior, especially when that superior's temper was as unpredictable as the weather."
But here's what keeps me up at night: when Wang Ziyu gets the poetry slips, Suian feels reluctant to part with them — not because she doesn't love Chu Yi, the text explicitly says, but because she can't bear to see her hard work given away so casually. That line hit me like a truck. She poured herself into those slips, and he treated them like pocket change. And she still bowed and saw him off.
I don't know what this relationship is becoming, but I know it's not simple.