"It was beautiful, like a red plum blossom blooming on a winter branch, only to be beaten down by the wind and snow, fluttering helplessly onto the cold ground."
I need a minute. The author just described Xin Ling's blush—her SHAME, her vulnerability, the way she's being forced into something she didn't consent to—and compared it to a flower being destroyed by winter. That is such a specific, aching kind of poetry. It made me feel SO much for this girl in that moment.
Xin Ling's emotional state throughout these chapters is devastating. She's trapped between a task she has to complete (replace her fiancé? No, wait, the system says her main task is something else entirely) and a man who holds all the cards. When she pleads "Don't tell him…" about her secret, her voice full of panic, you can feel how much her entire plan hinges on this one thing staying hidden.
The CP chemistry with Lu Jinzhi is insane though. There's this scene where he corners her in the corridor after she tries to flee, fixes her hair, and whispers in her ear: "Or has just one or two hours passed and you've already forgotten? Do I need to take you back and refresh your memory properly?" And she's like "N-no need" because her body is still sore. The power dynamic is so toxic and yet the writing makes it so intoxicating to read.
But the part that actually made my heart hurt was when Xin Ling goes to meet Lu Ziyao at the club. She's wearing covered-up clothes because of Lu Jinzhi's bite marks, and he humiliates her in front of everyone, calling her tacky, making her apologize with a drink. And she just... sits there. Endures it. Because she has a MISSION. The fact that she's swallowing this degradation for something bigger than herself made me want to shake her and hug her at the same time.