I called her a thousand times but it was always switched off . "I should have never said all those words," I said to myself. Why did she hang up even before completing her sentence? Was she really angry? What if she did not want to be my friend any longer? I asked all those questions to myself in my heart? My worst was to lose her as my friend which indeed had become reality. I wished if it was only my dream but my humble wish could not change the reality. As I had been fearing, I had lost her friendship which meant I lost her forever , I thought. I could not even think how I should lead my life then.How hard it would be for me-life without her lovely and charming smile and her joyful messages? Only on that day I realised that I had been addicted to thinking of her and it had been my habit to miss her.Her name has been embedded in my blood and the urge to keep in touch with her flowed through my veins but I couldn't contact her. It was when I lost her forever , I realised how much she meant to me.For weeks I did nothing but think of the past memories , the only gift she left for me, sleeping on my bed with my eyes never dried. It was very hard but I knew that I could no longer afford to live like that.All my consolation was that if she was meant for me she would come back one day.I knew that I carried the hope of my family and my friends. It was very hard though.Eacmorning reminded me of her and every newday brought new lonliness for me . Whenever I came across the places we visited and where we spent our time together, it reminded me of her.Every night I would weep to lighten my burdens and I would conversate with the moon.If my pillow was able to speak, it would say,"Master, why had you never kept me dry for a night? Please stop shedding tears and keep me dry atleast for one night ."My pillow would be drenched as if it was put in a bucket filled with water evry night.If the moon was able to speak, she would say,"My friend please stop living like this. I don't dare to look at your suffering and lonesomeness any longer. "